Monday, August 9, 2010

A melancholy Birthday

I am pensive about having spent 37 years on this planet, and about what may lie ahead.  Feeling a little blah about it, frankly.  I've never been one to dread getting older.  It's better than the alternative.  I believe "the rest of my days can be the best of my days."  I fully intend to get the most out of each year.

That said, today I've thought a lot about the things I haven't done.  Dreams that seem to be out of reach because basically I didn't do the legwork when I had the chance.  Yes, of course I could do it now, but not without great sacrifice from my family.  I am comparing myself to other people my age who have grabbed the proverbial bull by the horns.  Comparisons are never smart. 

I'm still digesting the impulsive career move I made in January.  It was a smart move, but somewhat less than lateral.  I'm no longer moving upward professionally, but I can still move forward.  And I can also choose to move in a completely different direction if I want.  (Likely with financial consequences.)

There is so much I still want to do.  I guess the thing to do is rank them according to priority and get crackin'.

It is trite and a bit unrealistic to make a goal out of a wildest dream.  Wildest dreams are wild like the ponies at Chinqoteague or Corolla, they are quite difficult to catch.  But, Birthdays are for wishes, right?

So, here goes.  I wish to become a fiction author who makes just enough money to work when I want and pursue a hobby in community theater, without cost to my family.

Picture me blowing out my candles here.

4 Comments:

At August 9, 2010 at 5:33 PM , Blogger JC said...

First, Happy Birthday
Second, It's a great dream but until it comes true, as the saying goes, don't give up the day job.

Now, start submitting those stories, books etc.

 
At August 10, 2010 at 12:23 AM , Blogger little hat said...

Violet, happy birthday. May your dreams come true. If its any consolation I made the move from teaching career to Community Theatre practitioner (professional) at about the age of thirty one. I haven't looked back since, though I don't work in community theatre today I do feel that my creative spark has carried me through 20 years of work and play. I ended up teaching Drama at Tertiary level, wrote a book about theatre and worked as a Community Arts Officer in my local council. All this without any qualification in the arts. Oh, and now I want to find my writing voice though I don't think it will be income earning.

 
At August 10, 2010 at 6:09 AM , Blogger Stef said...

BUT..... in the words of Stewart Smalley... You're good enough, you're smart enough, and doggone-it people like you. You're awesome! Don't let what hasn't happened in life bring you down. Lots good has happened for you that is worth celebrating :)

 
At August 20, 2010 at 8:04 AM , Blogger madamebutterfly said...

I visited your blog for the first time today - I hope you read back to see if people comment on previous posts - just wanted to say we're never to old for birthday wishes. My To Do List is less ambitious, but I am older and figure I have less time!
Hope you had a good day on your birthday

 

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